i am in a dilemma, should i or shouldn't i go for the fast track program?
i really want to stay here in kl. i can continue doing the things i love and passionate about,
be close to my family.
but over the years in melaka, i have found another family, my friends. how can i leave them?
all that we had been through together, those happy times, even sad times shared?
Friday, November 5, 2010
having a blog never actually cross my mind, until now. i really need an outlet to express my feelings. why blog? its a better alternative than telling some one, most call friend, or best friend. telling one particular person means opening up, being vulnerable, to one person. by blogging? i dont give a shit who reads it. i have security issues. opening up, well, done that and it dint work for me. the more i open up, the bigger, deeper the wounds.
share your problems. pfft! that is funny. when u open up to someone, they call it being clingy, if u dont, ur not making an effort to share, coz that is what friends do... share their problems.
i have to trust someone to share. to be sharing something personal causes me to have care and love to that person. then when they decided to leave. CRASH! i crash.
i may show this strong, never give a shit and have no problems, well im not.